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On 10:27 PM
finally, im like resting in my room now with a better feeling.
it has been like in and out weeks for me...
im so calm now. but yet, i realise lots things has been going on these few days..
that i did not noted... today, i had done lots of thinking...
while most people are busy doing something to improve with their own lifes...and some, had done what i would say, worthwhile things to them that allows them to satisfy their thoughs and needs...look at me now...
im moving too fast in my life, i cant seem to wait for one things at a time...i always wanted to do things right away and not waste any time...and sometimes, things seems to backfire...ive set myself target earlier in the year...and its only may....and i felt that i can't seem to handle it...where is the past motivation?...in which it has been there due to someone for the last 3 years...and now. im avoiding all i can to forget all about it...one step at a time...and its very frustrating....
everyday i ask, could i be better?....and the answer is always yes....
usually ill say train until u can carry the weight of expectations...
and...
i know what my heart tells me...its tells me all that no one could ever expect...
both expectations and hopes...its soo difficult to felt them. how does it really feel?...how does people does it?...if one thing i could ever wish for one thing...that has pretty much been something that ive been asking for...never has it been granted or achieved...im sad because of this...ive been trying. i make my own decision, and it seems that people decide things for me. thats should not be the way...
hai...what can i say..
anyway, im very very angry about something today...i felt like shouting at someone's face to vent my anger and give a one hard punch....it seems that i could not control my anger today...why naz?...why must i get angry...this is not me. i dun get angry...i dun have too...
but sometimes, people always thinks that they are always right...they think that they have everything to make them right.i tried to be relax....but i relax way too much...im too kind to people.how would i know if people say it behind my back...this is just way too much....way way too much....
today is also the fas event. haa. well done eugene. we got a free levis t-shirt! haa. power la...may getting tickets to the sgp world cup qualifiers hopefully.haa. overall, good event da...
and also, the awwa event...the aunties there really reminded me about my grandma...both the malay and chinese one...im beginning to miss them soo much...the love that we always had is always there....so near yet so far...i want to visit my malay grandma....she's been waiting for me....and also my chinese grandma...she recently suffered a stroke....and im so so worried about her...please grandma...do take care of yourself. i really can't describe how i felt but u 2 has been there for me wherenver in need. i miss u....yes i miss u grandma...do take care please....i will visit u soon. reali...i still remember the last words grandpa said...he said to take care of myself and be a sucessful person...im so young then but his voice still lingers in my mind.... this awwa event is worthwhile...it takes lots of pain away from your lifes...
naz.
finally, im like resting in my room now with a better feeling.
it has been like in and out weeks for me...
im so calm now. but yet, i realise lots things has been going on these few days..
that i did not noted... today, i had done lots of thinking...
while most people are busy doing something to improve with their own lifes...and some, had done what i would say, worthwhile things to them that allows them to satisfy their thoughs and needs...look at me now...
im moving too fast in my life, i cant seem to wait for one things at a time...i always wanted to do things right away and not waste any time...and sometimes, things seems to backfire...ive set myself target earlier in the year...and its only may....and i felt that i can't seem to handle it...where is the past motivation?...in which it has been there due to someone for the last 3 years...and now. im avoiding all i can to forget all about it...one step at a time...and its very frustrating....
everyday i ask, could i be better?....and the answer is always yes....
usually ill say train until u can carry the weight of expectations...
and...
i know what my heart tells me...its tells me all that no one could ever expect...
both expectations and hopes...its soo difficult to felt them. how does it really feel?...how does people does it?...if one thing i could ever wish for one thing...that has pretty much been something that ive been asking for...never has it been granted or achieved...im sad because of this...ive been trying. i make my own decision, and it seems that people decide things for me. thats should not be the way...
hai...what can i say..
anyway, im very very angry about something today...i felt like shouting at someone's face to vent my anger and give a one hard punch....it seems that i could not control my anger today...why naz?...why must i get angry...this is not me. i dun get angry...i dun have too...
but sometimes, people always thinks that they are always right...they think that they have everything to make them right.i tried to be relax....but i relax way too much...im too kind to people.how would i know if people say it behind my back...this is just way too much....way way too much....
today is also the fas event. haa. well done eugene. we got a free levis t-shirt! haa. power la...may getting tickets to the sgp world cup qualifiers hopefully.haa. overall, good event da...
and also, the awwa event...the aunties there really reminded me about my grandma...both the malay and chinese one...im beginning to miss them soo much...the love that we always had is always there....so near yet so far...i want to visit my malay grandma....she's been waiting for me....and also my chinese grandma...she recently suffered a stroke....and im so so worried about her...please grandma...do take care of yourself. i really can't describe how i felt but u 2 has been there for me wherenver in need. i miss u....yes i miss u grandma...do take care please....i will visit u soon. reali...i still remember the last words grandpa said...he said to take care of myself and be a sucessful person...im so young then but his voice still lingers in my mind.... this awwa event is worthwhile...it takes lots of pain away from your lifes...
naz.
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my life to hear your voiceThe Boy
Nickname: naz.Birthday: 23rd march 89
Location: singapore
Zodiac Sign: aries
Personality: bet2differ
Languages: eng
E-mail: nazrisaifee_chemicromance
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