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today before i went off to sch. my mum just hugged me and ask. if im okay...
and i replied...
im okay, just a little tired and that school is boring...
i guessed she sense it...dad just bought me a pack of nasi lemak for breakfast...
i love my mum and dad. no one can ever replace them in the world. maybe only they knoe how you really felt when you're down. they knows me well...so well...
anyway. what can i describe about this few days of this week...hmm...2 words? it hurts.
today, is like a totally change of mood...usually i would look forward my day to began with something nice...but today is like...i felt like taking out a punching bag and had a real workout. i thought of a run but i just cant run long because of my leg. and so...all i do is just stare at my proposal and sleep there in the epm room....all the way till friday prayers.just felt soo soo tired....aft fri prayers...i told myself, i must not waste any TIME. as the ISG is coming.
and i just felt that i shud keep myself busy. i dun want to think about certain things and emo one corner....and so i had a meeting with jimmy the sports club president, guru oly and of course jin long. all about isg stuffs. im glad to have jin long as a colleague. he's such an experience guy. and what would we do without him. really respect him. he asked me important qns. its soo useful and im sure i gonna be better in my leadership skills next time...thanks jin long.
i had meeting like 2 hours and just planning for publicity. im working with student affairs office and sports club to make this project... i must think that im up to it, i know people doubts my leadership. well, its okay...as long as you don't hurt them thats all matters.
the look of someone's face today really makes me really fuck up!. her face is like you knoe...like kana lorry tires reverse forward. nabei. not happy say la. dont pretend...im soo not happy already. dun spoil my mood. im just keeping myself busy and don't want to think of anything else...its been awhile since i give straight forward comments.
im tired of everything. maybe keeping quiet does not help. i guess this blog will help me say it all. i don't know if i shud feel happy or sad... im lucky to have one good buddy in my class. he understands me and wth...he asked me something today, naz why do you always must give up your happiness? is true la... and i can never ans that. maybe im destined to give people happiness and not myself....maybe thats happiness for me.
i don't know this heavy feeling i felt the whole day. i tried to look okay the whole week and it actually hurts when pretending...i cant seem to pretend today...im still trying to find answers.and i just could'nt understand why it hurts so much. why? it does not even start or happen yet. i shud be fine ryte? but why naz?...why?...
time awaits for no one i guess. somethings i don't know if i made the right decision in my life...isn't it all about time...
i dunno. pen-ing my thoughts here has its real consequences...
people will wonder what im talking about. well, i shall not say much because of several reasons...
again...and again im picking up the pieces.its hurts to know that you've to do it in the end...naz! wake up naz!!! wake up!!! you gotta stay cheerful and be happy and work hard in everything you do...maybe you shud change...afterall, i might be used to it already...doing all the things behind the scenes...
every actions i did has its reason.. when im afraid of losing something, ill try to show it...now, all i do is keep quiet when i felt smthing bad and that is wrong...but sometimes, you gotta think of other party...so which is right/ wrong? i dunno...
i dunno why i felt soo tired...its a different tired feeling. just cant explain...
i hope it'll be better next week. must try to be positive. pretends and be adaptable from it...
im thinking now...
in relationship?
i GIVEUP!
im not ready to go back into training. my ankle still hurts. and im not happy with certain things that happen in the team. i heard too many stories and complaints. i dunno if its a team or group. i said it here already. u guys knows well than me...
i dun wan to bother on stupid matters...
come on naz. jgnlah patah semangat...maybe god is testing you...
oooh god. tell me why?...
gtg slp now...
got another event 2molo...
today before i went off to sch. my mum just hugged me and ask. if im okay...
and i replied...
im okay, just a little tired and that school is boring...
i guessed she sense it...dad just bought me a pack of nasi lemak for breakfast...
i love my mum and dad. no one can ever replace them in the world. maybe only they knoe how you really felt when you're down. they knows me well...so well...
anyway. what can i describe about this few days of this week...hmm...2 words? it hurts.
today, is like a totally change of mood...usually i would look forward my day to began with something nice...but today is like...i felt like taking out a punching bag and had a real workout. i thought of a run but i just cant run long because of my leg. and so...all i do is just stare at my proposal and sleep there in the epm room....all the way till friday prayers.just felt soo soo tired....aft fri prayers...i told myself, i must not waste any TIME. as the ISG is coming.
and i just felt that i shud keep myself busy. i dun want to think about certain things and emo one corner....and so i had a meeting with jimmy the sports club president, guru oly and of course jin long. all about isg stuffs. im glad to have jin long as a colleague. he's such an experience guy. and what would we do without him. really respect him. he asked me important qns. its soo useful and im sure i gonna be better in my leadership skills next time...thanks jin long.
i had meeting like 2 hours and just planning for publicity. im working with student affairs office and sports club to make this project... i must think that im up to it, i know people doubts my leadership. well, its okay...as long as you don't hurt them thats all matters.
the look of someone's face today really makes me really fuck up!. her face is like you knoe...like kana lorry tires reverse forward. nabei. not happy say la. dont pretend...im soo not happy already. dun spoil my mood. im just keeping myself busy and don't want to think of anything else...its been awhile since i give straight forward comments.
im tired of everything. maybe keeping quiet does not help. i guess this blog will help me say it all. i don't know if i shud feel happy or sad... im lucky to have one good buddy in my class. he understands me and wth...he asked me something today, naz why do you always must give up your happiness? is true la... and i can never ans that. maybe im destined to give people happiness and not myself....maybe thats happiness for me.
i don't know this heavy feeling i felt the whole day. i tried to look okay the whole week and it actually hurts when pretending...i cant seem to pretend today...im still trying to find answers.and i just could'nt understand why it hurts so much. why? it does not even start or happen yet. i shud be fine ryte? but why naz?...why?...
time awaits for no one i guess. somethings i don't know if i made the right decision in my life...isn't it all about time...
i dunno. pen-ing my thoughts here has its real consequences...
people will wonder what im talking about. well, i shall not say much because of several reasons...
again...and again im picking up the pieces.its hurts to know that you've to do it in the end...naz! wake up naz!!! wake up!!! you gotta stay cheerful and be happy and work hard in everything you do...maybe you shud change...afterall, i might be used to it already...doing all the things behind the scenes...
every actions i did has its reason.. when im afraid of losing something, ill try to show it...now, all i do is keep quiet when i felt smthing bad and that is wrong...but sometimes, you gotta think of other party...so which is right/ wrong? i dunno...
i dunno why i felt soo tired...its a different tired feeling. just cant explain...
i hope it'll be better next week. must try to be positive. pretends and be adaptable from it...
im thinking now...
in relationship?
i GIVEUP!
im not ready to go back into training. my ankle still hurts. and im not happy with certain things that happen in the team. i heard too many stories and complaints. i dunno if its a team or group. i said it here already. u guys knows well than me...
i dun wan to bother on stupid matters...
come on naz. jgnlah patah semangat...maybe god is testing you...
oooh god. tell me why?...
gtg slp now...
got another event 2molo...
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