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On 11:15 PM
its tough...
its been real tough and i have to admit it...
im still trying to find what lies my mistake is...
im feeling so empty these few days...and putting a fake smile is
not gonna improve anything. ive been doing things myself trying to lift
myself up like watching inspirational movies and listening to songs.
i felt the need to free my soul and stay relax. however, i felt that my heart
just can't bring up the pieces together. i joke to my friends about some other topics...hoping that i can make myself happy but it seems not to work well.
the thing is i realize, im the one who is trying to make others feel happy but not myself. its true. i meant this has always been me the one giving others happiness. im so down because i cause a friend if mine to cry because of all this. i tried to make her happy and now its good to know she is fine. afterall, i should'nt even ask for any help or whatsoever. its a big bother for me to ask for soo much and from now on, ill ask nothing of those sorts of help. i have to do it myself...
picking up the pieces might as well takes time, and patching it up is never easy. a broken glass of a light bulb it is. because it represents minds are broken and soo too in which the heart connects with it. im still that lonely guy who is trying to find happiness though. its seems so empty and heavy my heart felt now...tiredness were felt from there.very very tired. despote all the sleep it is still that darn tiring...i tried breathing in some air from different sceneries. contemplating and reminiscing the past keeps me on. i hate it but it just happened.went to run and carry weights only to make myself more hurtful than ever...
why? its because i don't want to drag things and tell you that ive resolve everything and shall treat you as my best buddy from now on. but it seems that you are distancing urself thinking that i must be crazy and that i would need time. i really have no time with all the activities that ill be having. till that 23rd..i really don't want it to be awkward thats why i suggest something better...
i organized it on 23rd because im trying to find ways that my sis would help me book a chalet for me. i want a chalet because i miss those friends of mine...and im missing those laughters. my only wish is to be with those i knew as friends and best buddies. thats seems to be too much to ask for. for once, i wish something for myself...it has always been for others...
that real laughter seems to be gone for now...im still hopefull to laugh again and smile to everyone...im really sad. thats all i can say. depress. not really. who cares about the term depress.
one step at a time again...
looking to the bright side...
time will tell..
naz.
its tough...
its been real tough and i have to admit it...
im still trying to find what lies my mistake is...
im feeling so empty these few days...and putting a fake smile is
not gonna improve anything. ive been doing things myself trying to lift
myself up like watching inspirational movies and listening to songs.
i felt the need to free my soul and stay relax. however, i felt that my heart
just can't bring up the pieces together. i joke to my friends about some other topics...hoping that i can make myself happy but it seems not to work well.
the thing is i realize, im the one who is trying to make others feel happy but not myself. its true. i meant this has always been me the one giving others happiness. im so down because i cause a friend if mine to cry because of all this. i tried to make her happy and now its good to know she is fine. afterall, i should'nt even ask for any help or whatsoever. its a big bother for me to ask for soo much and from now on, ill ask nothing of those sorts of help. i have to do it myself...
picking up the pieces might as well takes time, and patching it up is never easy. a broken glass of a light bulb it is. because it represents minds are broken and soo too in which the heart connects with it. im still that lonely guy who is trying to find happiness though. its seems so empty and heavy my heart felt now...tiredness were felt from there.very very tired. despote all the sleep it is still that darn tiring...i tried breathing in some air from different sceneries. contemplating and reminiscing the past keeps me on. i hate it but it just happened.went to run and carry weights only to make myself more hurtful than ever...
why? its because i don't want to drag things and tell you that ive resolve everything and shall treat you as my best buddy from now on. but it seems that you are distancing urself thinking that i must be crazy and that i would need time. i really have no time with all the activities that ill be having. till that 23rd..i really don't want it to be awkward thats why i suggest something better...
i organized it on 23rd because im trying to find ways that my sis would help me book a chalet for me. i want a chalet because i miss those friends of mine...and im missing those laughters. my only wish is to be with those i knew as friends and best buddies. thats seems to be too much to ask for. for once, i wish something for myself...it has always been for others...
that real laughter seems to be gone for now...im still hopefull to laugh again and smile to everyone...im really sad. thats all i can say. depress. not really. who cares about the term depress.
one step at a time again...
looking to the bright side...
time will tell..
naz.
I give
my life to hear your voiceThe Boy
Nickname: naz.Birthday: 23rd march 89
Location: singapore
Zodiac Sign: aries
Personality: bet2differ
Languages: eng
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