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Time to update…
I guess there are quite a number of ppl visits my blog…its only I don’t know…and that I hope next time you ppl can leave some tags there kays?!...make my blog abit hippy.
The past 2 posts are actually for someone whom I love and cherish a lot in my life.
Haa receive words from mg that my blog is damn emo…
Haha another friend of mine say that again…that time I was criticized by some ppl in
My class the im emo. Haha one thing that I just want to say. Maybe im a boring guy to you people, because actually, sometimes, the biggest fear and pain inside me, ive been trying to keep to myself…I’ve really got no one to turn too…and I use this blog to pour out all my fears…and hope.
Who will ever really listen to my problem and understand it. What I meant is really really understand such that he/she is in my position…my mum and dad; they knew I have problems in my studies and im still trying to do my best. My bro and my sis knew, im trying to have a perfect relationship….but one thing for sure they can’t understand is the feeling…the deepest thought of mine…I care a lot about what others think about me. It’s the impression that im afraid off. Looks? Nahs…im already not at all gd-looking. Just have to be happy with what god gave me…attitude, which is the main thing im concern at. If you people realize…this year my 18 bd…only like 6 ppl turn up…out of like 20 ppl in 06’…I guess, ive changed this year…on 07, such that im abit sucks in my attitude…
I study how people talk, their eyes, their actions and reactions…I guess, I can never be perfect…to me, the people close to me is someone whom I really treasure….ppl like close friends of mine, my family…but what about the others?...
I realize Im beginning not to care about others…I meant, im not as helpful as I can be like I used to be…responsibility wise…im getting bad on it….determination? Bad at it also…
Where is the old nazri huh?...where most friends are with him, where the whole sec 5 ppl knew him and he had no enemies at all…where his classmate can rely on him…where he had the determination to succeed. In sports and studies…I realized one thing. My mentality is getting bad…when running 2.4km…to get the best timing, I keep failing…I know why now?...its the determination which I lost along this year….I guess 2007 is really a bad year for me…
So what is it gonna be for me now? On the start of 2008?!. I really hope that I will change for the better. Not the old nazri but better than the old nazri. Determination is there, confidence is there, and happiness is there. Happiness is the most important word I guess. I want to be a better friend. I want to be a better child. I want to be a better athlete and I want to be a better lover if im given the chance too…my philosophy in life is easy. Change the others life first before you changed yours.
Okay now I know 2007 is a year where im a letdown to all the people I known! Sorry sorry guys! Really! I realized it now…ive changed really….for the better. I will try not to be sad and moody. And sometimes, writing something sad does not meant that im emo okay?!. Understand the word emo first…then you can call people emo…if emo, I won’t even talk to those friends of mine…oooh come on!...change that mentality people…
This blog is for me to express my feelings and thoughts…it’s really up to you people to read or not….I called it freedom of speech.
Now,im really really confused. I really don’t know…am I gonna die soon because of the tight schedule I put up myself during sch?...some already were like saying that one day I’ll just collapse…that feeling…I felt that a lot of times…a lot…I meant I suffered more than that during my childhood times…I remember when I’m in Pri 5…morning go soccer training, afternoon school and at evening is tae kwon do training and tutiton, And yet, im still so active during that time…I just want to achieve something that I want to…therefore, please please people. Let me prove myself first…I love challenges in life…and this is what im borned for…
I’ll be telling myself that” naz, you’re stronger than yesterday” and before I slp, I shall tell myself that “ naz, let tomorrow be a better day than today.”. I PROMISED THIS, NAZ WILL BE BACK AND BETTER IN THE YEAR 2008….
Now, about relationship, haha met yijing the other day, haha the first thing she asked how am I?...got girlfriend or not?...haha I guess I heard all this like hundreds of time already. Well, im not in a rush for relationship…haha.
As I was talking to steffi the other day…I realized one thing…she always called me “ nazri you sure jia lat!” haha. I guess they are saying that either I have no chance at all, or they just care about me for the possibility of being hurt…well, I gotta admit, only love shall exist in my life and not hatred…I know most of my close friends wanted to know her decisions and my decisions..i know you people do care about me…I really do thank to a lot to you people….whatever happens…I’ll be okay…
Haha, I guess I shall confess now
deep inside me, there is always this fear…this fear that she will leave me…I really don’t know how did I have the strength to continue this pursue…she must be tired of me I guess…its 2 years plus already…and my heart keep telling me not to let go…I know you people can say that I am to devoted to her and that she is not worth my devotion…well, as long as I here, my greatest wish is just to be with her…yes, the truth is ive yet to let go…I just can’t as some of my words are still left unspoken….people who knew I left it unspoken has criticize me…and it made me realized something…
whatever, the consequences is…I knew I tried my best…she knew…and she knows that im the one that love her…if we were really to be separated or not meant to be together…I just have to stay strong and accept it… I just want her to know how it feels to be loved….unlike me, no one I loved ever loved me… her happiness is something I cherish. I did told her that her laughter and smile is something that worth to be cherished for…she did say about giving up in love and she has no confidence and fate on it anymore…hopefully she knows that if she decides that, what will happen to ppl like me…ive told her that I have hope for her and that I will always be there for her…and if she were to decide…hopefully it is something she really wants…and happy for…and I hope she will not care about my feelings…don’t bother about me, as long you’re happy im even willing to give up anything…I know I will cry and breakdown…but deep inside , I knew I tried my best already…
if anything were to be concluded…I guess if its over, I will not be going to any relationship anymore…I’ve to think about achieving something else in my life…relationship…shall try to forget about it…
I just don’t know when…anytime, I can just collapse cux of tiredness about all this…no guys. Don’t give me compliments for waiting…I rather you give me compliments for me for being able to give love…that will be all I guess…
Till today im still hopeful…I’ve shed enough tears already…shall shed no more then…no one will ever knew how it feels…ive told her I want to start anew with her if I have to…and she did say that let it be natural….haha…im willing to do that…but it will take 2 hands two clap…. I guess now its in her control…not me anymore…hands down…..
2008: it will be a better year…goodbye to 2007! adios!
Take care my friends…love ya’ all!
Time to update…
I guess there are quite a number of ppl visits my blog…its only I don’t know…and that I hope next time you ppl can leave some tags there kays?!...make my blog abit hippy.
The past 2 posts are actually for someone whom I love and cherish a lot in my life.
Haa receive words from mg that my blog is damn emo…
Haha another friend of mine say that again…that time I was criticized by some ppl in
My class the im emo. Haha one thing that I just want to say. Maybe im a boring guy to you people, because actually, sometimes, the biggest fear and pain inside me, ive been trying to keep to myself…I’ve really got no one to turn too…and I use this blog to pour out all my fears…and hope.
Who will ever really listen to my problem and understand it. What I meant is really really understand such that he/she is in my position…my mum and dad; they knew I have problems in my studies and im still trying to do my best. My bro and my sis knew, im trying to have a perfect relationship….but one thing for sure they can’t understand is the feeling…the deepest thought of mine…I care a lot about what others think about me. It’s the impression that im afraid off. Looks? Nahs…im already not at all gd-looking. Just have to be happy with what god gave me…attitude, which is the main thing im concern at. If you people realize…this year my 18 bd…only like 6 ppl turn up…out of like 20 ppl in 06’…I guess, ive changed this year…on 07, such that im abit sucks in my attitude…
I study how people talk, their eyes, their actions and reactions…I guess, I can never be perfect…to me, the people close to me is someone whom I really treasure….ppl like close friends of mine, my family…but what about the others?...
I realize Im beginning not to care about others…I meant, im not as helpful as I can be like I used to be…responsibility wise…im getting bad on it….determination? Bad at it also…
Where is the old nazri huh?...where most friends are with him, where the whole sec 5 ppl knew him and he had no enemies at all…where his classmate can rely on him…where he had the determination to succeed. In sports and studies…I realized one thing. My mentality is getting bad…when running 2.4km…to get the best timing, I keep failing…I know why now?...its the determination which I lost along this year….I guess 2007 is really a bad year for me…
So what is it gonna be for me now? On the start of 2008?!. I really hope that I will change for the better. Not the old nazri but better than the old nazri. Determination is there, confidence is there, and happiness is there. Happiness is the most important word I guess. I want to be a better friend. I want to be a better child. I want to be a better athlete and I want to be a better lover if im given the chance too…my philosophy in life is easy. Change the others life first before you changed yours.
Okay now I know 2007 is a year where im a letdown to all the people I known! Sorry sorry guys! Really! I realized it now…ive changed really….for the better. I will try not to be sad and moody. And sometimes, writing something sad does not meant that im emo okay?!. Understand the word emo first…then you can call people emo…if emo, I won’t even talk to those friends of mine…oooh come on!...change that mentality people…
This blog is for me to express my feelings and thoughts…it’s really up to you people to read or not….I called it freedom of speech.
Now,im really really confused. I really don’t know…am I gonna die soon because of the tight schedule I put up myself during sch?...some already were like saying that one day I’ll just collapse…that feeling…I felt that a lot of times…a lot…I meant I suffered more than that during my childhood times…I remember when I’m in Pri 5…morning go soccer training, afternoon school and at evening is tae kwon do training and tutiton, And yet, im still so active during that time…I just want to achieve something that I want to…therefore, please please people. Let me prove myself first…I love challenges in life…and this is what im borned for…
I’ll be telling myself that” naz, you’re stronger than yesterday” and before I slp, I shall tell myself that “ naz, let tomorrow be a better day than today.”. I PROMISED THIS, NAZ WILL BE BACK AND BETTER IN THE YEAR 2008….
Now, about relationship, haha met yijing the other day, haha the first thing she asked how am I?...got girlfriend or not?...haha I guess I heard all this like hundreds of time already. Well, im not in a rush for relationship…haha.
As I was talking to steffi the other day…I realized one thing…she always called me “ nazri you sure jia lat!” haha. I guess they are saying that either I have no chance at all, or they just care about me for the possibility of being hurt…well, I gotta admit, only love shall exist in my life and not hatred…I know most of my close friends wanted to know her decisions and my decisions..i know you people do care about me…I really do thank to a lot to you people….whatever happens…I’ll be okay…
Haha, I guess I shall confess now
deep inside me, there is always this fear…this fear that she will leave me…I really don’t know how did I have the strength to continue this pursue…she must be tired of me I guess…its 2 years plus already…and my heart keep telling me not to let go…I know you people can say that I am to devoted to her and that she is not worth my devotion…well, as long as I here, my greatest wish is just to be with her…yes, the truth is ive yet to let go…I just can’t as some of my words are still left unspoken….people who knew I left it unspoken has criticize me…and it made me realized something…
whatever, the consequences is…I knew I tried my best…she knew…and she knows that im the one that love her…if we were really to be separated or not meant to be together…I just have to stay strong and accept it… I just want her to know how it feels to be loved….unlike me, no one I loved ever loved me… her happiness is something I cherish. I did told her that her laughter and smile is something that worth to be cherished for…she did say about giving up in love and she has no confidence and fate on it anymore…hopefully she knows that if she decides that, what will happen to ppl like me…ive told her that I have hope for her and that I will always be there for her…and if she were to decide…hopefully it is something she really wants…and happy for…and I hope she will not care about my feelings…don’t bother about me, as long you’re happy im even willing to give up anything…I know I will cry and breakdown…but deep inside , I knew I tried my best already…
if anything were to be concluded…I guess if its over, I will not be going to any relationship anymore…I’ve to think about achieving something else in my life…relationship…shall try to forget about it…
I just don’t know when…anytime, I can just collapse cux of tiredness about all this…no guys. Don’t give me compliments for waiting…I rather you give me compliments for me for being able to give love…that will be all I guess…
Till today im still hopeful…I’ve shed enough tears already…shall shed no more then…no one will ever knew how it feels…ive told her I want to start anew with her if I have to…and she did say that let it be natural….haha…im willing to do that…but it will take 2 hands two clap…. I guess now its in her control…not me anymore…hands down…..
2008: it will be a better year…goodbye to 2007! adios!
Take care my friends…love ya’ all!
I give
my life to hear your voiceThe Boy
Nickname: naz.Birthday: 23rd march 89
Location: singapore
Zodiac Sign: aries
Personality: bet2differ
Languages: eng
E-mail: nazrisaifee_chemicromance
His blog
A poetry in motion that is. for it has its own reasons and meanings and for all this guy could only have. to pour and to cheer about his life. may not be known, but does make a difference in the world. he is half malay and chinese. he loves music. he loves sports. he loves art. he loves the people he knew. simple. simplest at its himself.loves & hates
50 first date, athletics, avenged sevenfold, blink 182, boxers and hoodies, chris brown, dashboard confessional, faber drive, family and friends, fashion, fm static, football, jonas brothers, katy perry, limp bizkit, music of any kind, secondhand serenade, shop, simple plan, sports, tats simple., the beatlesmy fav'd quotes
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Manchester United
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x chor hoon
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x dawnwlle
x dilemmastar
x edith
x elaine
x elearnor
x feng yao.
x hazel
x hafiz
x justina
x kasmini
x kenny
x luqman
x lewis
x matt
x masnurulazurin
x nadiah.
x nadzirah
x peijun.
x peng xin.
x peiyi
x steffi.
x sylvester
x yana
x yinci
x yvonne.
x zhenguang
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