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okay time to update.
ytd, christmas eve,...
woke up early in the morning and i severy lacking of sleep thise few days.
got my heavy bottom up and drag myself to shower and get ready...
meet mg and prepare shu ling's present and then we went to harbour front to meet snow, nickcholas and shu ling.haha. went to sentosa!!!.lols...nt that fun with 5 ppl only...kinda reminisce those in the past...like 20 ppl frm our classmates..haha!
played freesbies, volleyball and soccer.haha.mg is burned..and so am i..but im already burned..whats there to be burned more?!.darn it...
im a half chinese yet im dark...sian...anway thanks nick and snow for the adidas bottle! woot!.thanks shu ling for the cheese cake. its darn nice.!!thanks mg and zg for the chocolate!.
went there like for 5hours and rush back home to change!!!..
haha, i took so long to decide the clothes to wear...haha! sian...want to wear scarf, wear vest, wear jacket...but in the end just wore a red t-shirt with black skinny jeans. meet up with ah baboon, elearnor, mg, zg,yen lee and xian yong.haha. went up the life from cck...were listening to this ah-ma saying she wants to go geylang, that crack the laughter out from us...haha
was suppose to go mount faber to see the asian highest christmas tree but did not...went other places..haha lols. im lazy to update...read zg blog...
im soo tired that day, its like from morning all the way to the end of the day, i listen to lots of problem...anway next outing should be on new year's eve. yeah!
maybe some ppl knew when they look at me yesterday, im not really enjoying my christmas. im trying to be happy to lift the atmosphere up... and hell yeah, i have 3wishes and that firstly, people close to me will recovers from their sickness..my mum and dad, and my loved ones. my friends to be happy...and the last one is for myself...for once, i just wish something for myself...and i don't think that wish can ever be granted...
i sometimes screwd up, time to fix up things.anw
sometimes, to see people gather up to enjoy their time with thier loved ones is so heartening... couples that cherish eachother, parents, and families...my family don't celebrate christmas...and maybe i should not. but one thing of the past that reminds me soo many things...
i really don't know what i can do for you...you knew that i always wish for you. my wish is that i can spend time with you. we might not talk like the way we used too...and sometimes, everything that happens to me reminds me of you. i just don't know why. people can forget so easily but i can't. i just hope i can see you again.. i really miss you. everyday, i just keep thinking wondering where are you? and how are you doing?...thinking of the past and you, sometimes the pain is too much to bear. im hurt because i know i did not do enough for you, im hurt because i could not see you and im hurt because, i knew you would never love me...i hope you are reading this. i want to tell you, even though things seems to fade and blur now. i want to make it clear. i want to start anew with you...i want to build that chemistry and i want to love you with all i can...i felt so lonely all the time thinking where are you...how i wish you were here with me.and it will be the greatest gift of all if i can hold you around my arms...ive shed tears for thinking of you. and i know there it be no point. i just want to tell you how much i need you here with me...words alone can never be enough but i just wanna say this...i still do love you and im missing you terribly...
They always say true love is all you need
But when true love is gone can we go on?
They say true love would never leave
But my true love is gone and I can't go on
I can't go on
oh god, please help me..
give me the strength..
to keep me strong...
I give
my life to hear your voice